Actress in distress

"I love you"

"I care for you"

I can’t express myself.

I’m mad when he’s cute,

I’m delighted when he’s annoyed,

I’m stoic when he touches me.

I want to express myself.

Blush when he smiles,

frown when he’s unhappy,

laugh when he’s funny.

But how can I when I can’t

express the feelings I feel.

because its unconventional-

too taboo

not fitting.

I can hide well when I need to,

when they ask I answer like I don’t know these feelings from the back of my head.

I can talk without stuttering,

sigh when disappointed,

touch without flinching.

but alone, I am weak.

So incapable of handling

the heartache of loving someone you’re

not allowed to.

I executed the script so exceptionally, my dreams don’t even recognize him as anything more than a friend- in almost a professional setting.

all I ask

is a chance to step out of the spotlight,

to go backstage and run,

gown crunched up on the grip of my trembling hands;

towards the only unscripted thing that ever

occurred

In my Life.

Lead female: I love you

Lead male: I care for you

I quit.